Bedazzling my guitar so it kind of looks like Taylor Swift’s. :D FUCK YEAH.
Every year I hate to let go of the year past. I cry every year since freshman year. I hate letting go. I hate starting over in some aspects. Currently, my stomach is wrenching and my mind feels like it’s about to explode. This year so much happened, I learned so much, I gained so much, and I lost much as well. Every lose is a gain though right? So many memories of staying out late and...
Three words. :)
Paint me a picture I’d never want to take my eyes off of Give me your heart and I’ll give you my love Sing me a song so I can sing along too And tell me those three words you know I wanna hear And I’ll say ‘um right back to you
My dear friend Emily, now I must learn that song on the piano. I must now find the sheet music. ASAP. That’s part of my goal before the end of this year. LEARN THIS SONG. Between you and I - Every Avenue.
Give me a band to become obsessed with. I need to surround myself with new music and put it on my ipod. PLEASEEEE. PLEASEEEEE. I’ll love you forever :)
I hate the fact that you are everything I want in a guy. And I might like you BUT DAMN IT YOU’RE MY BEST FRIEND. This isn’t supposed to happen. Blah.
I miss you too. Get some sleep. Text me tomorrowww. Make it your body’s god damn New year’s Resolution to feel better. k? :D FEEL BETTER.
<3 postsecret.com I don’t drink because I’m too scared I’ll ruin my life or turn out to be an alcoholic like my dad or my grandfather. Please. Stop. Judging and pressuring. Me. Into. Trying. This.
Sometimes we forget to do the easiest thing in the...
I want to enjoy my job as much as Micheal Jackson loved getting up on stage and singing. I want to be able to see it in my eyes how happy I am doing what I’m doing. I want to feel the way he felt when he heard his audience start to roar their applause. I’m watching his movie that came out after he died. It’s really amazing, this is the first time I’ve ever really listened...
I don’t know where to go from here. I have the chance, should I take it? Or will I just look like a fool? Why do I fucking care? I’m so scared. I want to prove everyone wrong, but I’m so scared instead I’ll prove myself wrong. I sound stupid. So many people have told me I’m going to make it somewhere someday. I hope I do go in the right direction and I hope I make it...
The truth is everywhere, even in the smallest...
With that. I leave you. Goodnight.
Chronophobia: Fear of Time
Aren’t we all in a way, chronophobic? As a teen I find myself fearing time more and more as the days pass. Maybe there’s a a different word for it, but growing up and letting time take away second, by second, my minute, by hour, of my life. It’s scary. And I doubt you can say you’re not afraid of time. As I sit here typing this message, time is going. It never stops....
I wish I could admit my feelings about everyone. Just tell the honest to God truth without being afraid to be judged, without being afraid of losing someone. In some aspects, I guess this wish is just to wish to, in some aspects (not all), just not care. Not give a shit. Just say things. But with tact.
Maybe I just need to accept things the way they are….. Live and let live right? Right. Just let it happen. Okay I will.
I CANNOT FIND BLACK SPARKLIES! Where would I find them?
Please someone show me I'm still alive.
It's just one of those nights...
where I’m really happy with my life and where I am. But, I just want to cry because there’s so much I don’t understand and want to. Or because for once, I just want to be on the inside looking out, instead of visa versa. Or because instead of being the listener, I want to be the one listened too. But, I guess my position in life is the listener, I’m fine with that. But,...
Me at 11:whatever strumming appegiated chords because it’s to late to actually strum, with my slightly tone deaf singing in parts, and my weird spacy faces, my original works though. All mine. Probably will come down sometime tomorrow.
How do you train your imagination?
Have you ever been alone in a crowded room? Well,...
Last night I had not a crazy dream, not a good, dream, not a bad dream, simply just a dream. It set me in my old elementary school and mixed with with kids that are my age, and kids that are young, like 7-9. My dream was filled with anger and passion. I was finally speaking my mind to some one, no matter what they do I just hold back, or give them attitude, but never have I told the truth too....
So, I was able to revive a friendship.. Maybe I can rekindle and old flame too? :)
Why am I smiling like an idiot right now?
I should really get out of bed and start getting ready.. I’M SO LAZY. And tumblr, you distract me with people who’s writing is so good you give me goosebumps, why would I want to leave my bed.. Ohhh well, gotta make my self some coffee on my Keriug and start getting ready. Just thought I’d tell the whole world what my plans are.
Because webcams are awesome. I also use mine to talk to people in New Mexico, my familyyy. Get one. :) They’re fun. Then you could skype with me and Lexy one day :D
Happy the snow stopped. Time to really rekindle an old friendship? I think so. And shopping at the same time, while drinking starbucks. Today will be a good day. If only me and Viv could go sledding.
I think my favorite part of writing is when the words begin to control you, then...– (via recycledpages)
We do, I think. Of course I don’t know where you live so. But, uh if it snows out mine and Emily’s plans sure. IF NOT TUESDAY. We’re going sledding. I think that’d be fun. Well.. if Tuesday’s good for you? And I have no idea what hill.. I will ponder for a bit about this.
OF COURSE I’LL GO SLEDDING WITH YOU. PSH. well if daddy lets me..
@ Viv, what ever I just replied, I meant find...
It feels good to be able to write again and just feel, I don’t know, free. I wrote another song. Fixed a few others. One more left to fix. It’s like a mix of two languages… perfect. Words and music. Beauitful.
bottledlightening: I wish my ceiling and roof were made out of glass so every night I could sleep under the stars. And during the winter I could feel as if I’m in a giant snow globe so that it looked like it was just shaken, white flakes falling all around me. And during rainy season I could just watch the rain’s path down the glass. And lightening storms, would be beautiful to watch, maybe...
My favorite chord on the guitar. I’ve been playing it for five minutes straight. It’s just so pretty. It makes me smile.
Childhood in a box..
Making myself Toy Story Mac&Cheese. I mean who doesn’t want to eat little noodles in the shape of Buzz and Woody..
theknownartist: llanamielle: Roll your mouse over this!!!!!!!!! (via -hotanddangerous)
Today is the last Sunday of 2010.